Janaadams's Blog

DISTANCE BETWEEN US Long ago the two of us were fused together There was no question of whether We were a couple or just friends If we were real or just pretend We completed one another Me and you, my lover We were more than many have We were the ideal of what others wanted We were what others wanted to have. Yet all of that has been taken for granted. In so many ways, it has been tainted A crater has fell into our world Our love, now, has been thrown, it has been hurled And now exists this space between us A distance so far apart Impossible to reach the other, for either of us With this distance between our hearts. Try as we may To reach one another one day Impossible it seems Almost as in our dreams You say we will be fine That our love will again shine Yet in my mind and heart, this is hard to conceive As everything, still, is hard to believe. Easier it seems for you to reach For you are the one, who caused this breach With this tainted love that you did start It is harder for me to reach apart. And as days go by, I wonder why I have given you more times, than any other guy. The answer may be That I love you deeply And maybe it is, that I want not to be alone To live each day in this place we call a home And for what ever reasons We have had to endure these seasons I know not why Yet I only cry And as this space grows us further apart Every minute of each day With less and less to each other, say More impossible it seems, we will mend my heart. I know not if, we will, ever again merge To the place we once were To the place we once knew Where love was strong and binding, between me and you. By: Jana Adams…August, 2007

AN ANSWER TO… HOW DO YOUDEAL WITH PAIN I have told you in my word That you hold the power of the shield and sword My child, you are not to deal with pain Even through the thunderstorms with the cold drawn rain You are to cast your cares upon me Open up and allow me to see Show me what is bottled up inside Your fears, no longer will you have to hide My child, of me, you can expect it all For my child I will not let you fall I will never fail you Yet I will always save you I am the one who has come to sanctify you I have brought you the truth I have brought you the light I am the one that, for you, will put up the fight How do you deal with pain you ask? This for me is no task It is not your job to deal with pain It is not your job to worry yourself Just call my name And I will put your pain up on a shelf I have called you to love I have called you to praise I have promised you, that with me, you will have no pain So call my name And everyday I will do the same. By: Jana Adams….October 22, 2006

How do you deal with pain?... When it consumes you like the heat of a summers’ day... When all your life you’ve hidden it away... Then someone comes along and says it doesn’t have to be that way... Says be yourself you are a flower... You let go, then in a blink of an eye your world turns sour... How do you deal with pain?... When you lye in a sea of disparity... Overtaken with thoughts of uncertainty... How do you deal with pain?... When all the acts and words you thought to be true... Turn out to be lies simply fed to you... How do you deal with pain?... When it comes to pass... That preceding days... Were filled with misguided notions... Showered with false emotions... How do you deal with pain?... When all you thought was real in your life... Ends up in strife... How do you deal with pain?... If what you feel devours you spirit... If everyday you constantly feel it... How do you deal with pain?... When expectations of the one you love... Seemed not so far out of reach... When foreseen acts of the one you love... Appeared as though they would not end up breach... How do you deal with pain?... Like spoiling a child when you spare the rod... The trust and respect once had... Turns out to be a façade... How do you deal with pain?... How do you deal with pain... When you are dismembered of your crown... And your world gets turned up-side down... When on a pedestal, you once stood... And now you find yourself hiding under a hood... How do you deal with pain... How do you deal with pain?... By: Jana Adams October, 2006

HELLO ALL, I THOUGHT I WOULD START MY BLOG OFF WITH THE INTRODUCTION TO MY BOOK "UNKNOWN LOVE"..... We all wonder, at some point in time, what it truly means to love and be loved. This book was created in love, about love and for love. It was created so that you may join me in my journey to find this unknown love. It is a story, a journal of my life from child to womanhood. As a young girl, on the brinks of many new emotions I had yet to explore, I began my journey. As I experienced new feelings and emotions, I wrote about them. I wrote of life, love and what I thought love to be. At the age of 14, I wrote my first poem. As I grew with each new experience in life, my poetry grew with me. In this book you will see my perceptions of what love was through the eyes of a young girl, a young woman, and through the eyes of a saved woman. My search for love took me through many triumphs and tribulations. I thought, on different occasions that I had finally found what many of us so desire. I thought I had found my true love. Many times I was wrong, yet I still searched to find this love so I could fill this strong void I felt in my heart. It’s funny, looking back on my life, I see now that the greatest love had been there all along. There were times when I felt there wasn’t any hope and times when I felt like giving up, but God was always there to bring me through. He was present in every aspect of my life but as a young girl who had fallen away from him and even a young woman, I didn’t realize it at the time. Through each of my life’s experiences of love, pain and confusion I continued to write them down. There were many times throughout my life when God spoke to me through my poetry. He was showing me that he was there to love me, to comfort me and bring me happiness. He was reaching out to show me that he was there to give me a love much greater than what I could possibly find here on earth. God continued to reach out to me until one day I reached back. Through his ever- present love, he brought me back to him. He showered me with his love, as he did many times before. This time was different though, for my mind and heart were opened which allowed me to feel and experience his love to the fullest. The void I had been trying to fill all of these years was finally gone. God filled it with the most powerful love of all, His. I hope in reading this it will give you hope and inspiration. I hope it will show you that you are not alone in your life’s journey. I pray you will see that no matter what you may be going through or have gone through in your journey, God is there. He is waiting and always reaching out to give you the greatest love of all. Be patient, for just as God has chosen for someone on earth to love you, he has also chosen the perfect time to bring that person to you. I pray that you seek and find God’s love first, for when you do your heart will be complete, as mine was when I found him once again.